MRs Routine

[mr1982]

Stopped Fenu per instructions, am on just RC starting today. I have 7 days of pills left (if I counted right)

[mr1982]

After my dose today, 2 Days Left of Pills!!!! Have started being very emotional, not sure what that is related to, but the slightest thing sets me off crying and if I am not crying then my husband tells me I am miserable. So am hoping to be a little less crazy next week at this time

Boobs are extremely tender. Not so much painfully aching like they had been, but very sore and very tender still. The slightest hug has me bracing for impact, but warm water helps alot. I believe I am growing uppers, but its coming in a way I didn't expect, not that I am sure what I expected. They appear to be slowly growing more from the nipple up, which makes sense really. Boobs are also more round, and look very full from the sides, so I am really happy. Am just now filling my B cup bra, which is rather exciting for me. I noticed right boob is slowly lagging behind, so fingers crossed that it will be catch up enough to be a little less noticeable. Ummm, boobs are "firm", like they actually have stuff in them instead of an empty feeling, but it doesn't feel like enlarged lobes anymore...........I don't know.
I do have to say that recently when I look in the mirror I wonder where the boobs came from, still haven't gotten used to actually seeing them, and even Hubs is noticing something different, which up to this point he hadn't.

Acne is subsiding, but still present. Cellulite has lessened a great deal, and I would say I am back to probably my orignial BE amount give or take a little (more give). I think what is also helping is the new leg excercises I have been doing.

Okay thats my update. I don't have any measurements, as I have come to the realization that my measurements suck. So I am now going off of "bra fit" and thats it. I think there are probably some of us, whose measurements don't give much encouragement, even when they look much bigger then they had previously.

I am content if my boobs never get bigger then they are right now - just so long as they don't get smaller either ;D

[Wenonae]

Woo-woooo!! You're almost off the BE train! ;d Way to hang in there..and what a journal you have! Since stopping Fenu..you're going through a bit of adjustment, but you'll be fine in a few days.

Again, come back and update in a coupla months. I think you'll change bra size...or at least type so you can be comfy. B's in one brand are C's in another.

Wen'

[mr1982]

Well this is the start of no more pills. To be honest, I felt as though something was missing - it was nice to not have to swallow a whole bunch of pills, but still kinda odd.

I will try and post as I continue to see things change, whether for the good or bad.
Fingers crossed on reaching my goal, and/or keeping what I have.

Meant to mention, its been nice not to have chronic headaches anymore. Still have extremely tender boobs though, can't wait until that stops too, I just want to feel normal EVERYWHERE again. Would also like to get rid of this acne - I still have some pesky pimples that just won't go away - its terrible!

Wen - I'm not going to try on any new bras for at least another month, unless the ones I have get really really painful/uncomfortable to wear. I don't want to rush out and buy some bigger ones due to some swelling and then get all depressed because I shrunk! I'm def not ready for any new ones right now - I am only about a full B, but def. not any larger.

[Wenonae]

Hey MR-

Yay for headaches. Soreness/aches gone in about 2 weeks. Now, you'll wake up w/ more in mornings during luteal, but more will stay a few days after each AF. Def keep us posted...enjoy the pill-less days. Umm, you don't need to worry about suppressing growth...when you feel like you can't breathe- time to upgrade!

Wen'

[mr1982]

Well its been a few weeks of no pills. Boobs are still aching off and on, but more off then on, still very tender though.
I must say I am a little disappointed this month, as they swelled up real nice before AF, and deflated afterwards. Although they appear to be much smaller, they are actually measuring a little larger - currently without a bra I measure over 34inches. Almost completely filled the B bra, wheres as a few weeks ago I was overflowing. Next week or so I will start my lut. swelling again.
I think I might have lost some "back fat" as my bras are now riding up my back, but to tighten them I can't breathe, but the cups still fit really nice, so I don't know whats going on - I don't feel though that I need to adjust sizes yet, just that the band is off again.
Also Right Boob is still laggin behind, its noticeable to me, but as for bra fit, they both fit the bra cup the same way, so maybe its just sitting differently.
I am still getting a few nasty nasty pimples, and they are quite painful, so fingers crossed that these will leave and soon.

Thats my update for now. I'll try updating at the end of this month/beginning of next - so I will at least get monthly updates in, or sooner if I notice huge changes.

I'm glad the pills are over. Its made me more relaxed, and less obsessed over my boobs; as long as I don't shrink smaller then what I am now, I don't plan on ever taking another BE pill again!

[Christa]

Hey Mr,

Your BE journey is really inspiring to me. I am about 6 weeks into my BE and am starting to notice changes. I can total relate to what you are saying about the sensations you got and comparing them to nursing. I nursed my kids too and I am having similar aches and let down feelings. I hope I have the same success that you are having. I also started out at nothing after nursing my kids.

Congrats!!! on your growth.

[mr1982]

YIKES!!! I am a bit worried by the recent changes that are going on over here.

I seem to be losing some boobage here. I am now no longer able to fill the B bra the way I had been last month. I thought this might be because I had gotten used to some swelling, but I didn't swell up at all this month. I also don't really fit the As though as they are a bit snug.

The only way I can describe how they look is: flat. They just seemed to have lost all fullness, and this occured before AF even started.

I am not sure what else to say at this point other then I am not very happy right now. I will wait and see how things go, but I am not willing to go back to what I had before after where I have been, its just to hard for me - it would be very similar to what happened after nursing.

[rei]

Hey lady
I've got something from Wen for you:

Hey MR- you've got permanent gains of 2.1c, 1.7cmeats, and 1.2c water. It seems that there's something sp that has cropped up. I am able to give a hand, so you should regain 0.5c of water by the end of your next periods.

the sp issue was not a direct block, but it is basically some neg. energy around you that's manifesting physically

Hope this helps, Wen'

[mr1982]

Thank you Rei

[mr1982]

Just want to pop in and say - boobs still aren't back like they had been last month. This has me rather depressed, as I feel like I swallowed all those stupid pills for nothing don't get me wrong, they are def. bigger then when I started, in fact they don't even look like the same boobs, but they aren't what I had gotten used to.
On the other hand I am not totally depressed, as my boobs are back to looking like boobs instead of empty sacks as they had previously, which goes a long way for me.
I don't know......................I kinda expected just a little more then what I got. There is the chance that come the spring, I migh start NBE again to try and get just a little larger. I really would love to be a Full B, small c. Right now I would judge I am more a Full A/Small B.........................

[rei]

Hi Mr,

I've talked to Wen recently, and this is what she tells you:

Hi MR- Rei updated me on how you were doing. It seems like you've got no actions. Another 0.6c increase is currently located on your thighs. For the fats to move to your breasts..you just needs to stay up on your rest (7hrs MIN/nite). 90% of those should move to your breasts by beginning of next cycle. Report back. Wen'

You seem to be missing about 0.6 c.

[mr1982]

Well its that time again - my monthly check in:

My boobs inflated right before my period, but have since lost most of their fullness again.
I have been staying up on my rest as much as possible, but at this point I feel as though my boobs are moving into my thighs instead of reversed. I refuse to put on any more weight, as once again my lower clothes are not fitting right anymore, and therefore am going to have to get a little tougher with my workout routine, as I refuse to go up any more clothing sizes. I also have not lost my period belly, and now look first trimester pregnant, which has me seriously bummed.................
To further add to my lovely new year, my left boob looks bigger then my right. What was once only noticeable to me, is fairly obvious now. At times I catch myself wondering if I should even have imbarked on this journey, as the further I go, the more unhappy I am with my appearance - (thankfully I did not have plastic surgery)
Overall I am fairly content now. If my stomach would deflate giving me back my six pack I had last month, and my thighs would lose about and inch or more, and my boobs would just stay swollen then I would be ecstatic, but for now, I am must say I feel less the vixen I once was, and more the mom I once took pity on. Justice? perhaps.

[rei]

Hi MR,
I've asked Wen about you. It's also because I want to see more success stories around She said you'll be fine.
You swelled 0.5 c, then down to 0.3 c.
The fats (not sure if it's fats) from thights will shift to smaller breast in 2.5 weeks, and also a bit will shift to larger. So that smaller is expected to go up by another 0.6 and larger by another 0.2 c.

[mr1982]

Boobs have started to ache really bad. Back kinda the way they did a few months ago. I can not wear a bra and be comfortable, so I just go braless. This is not because my bras are too small, just irritating and uncomfortable.

I still seem to be deflating, as my A cups are slightly gaping in the tops again, much like they did a few months back. They are also sagging, and empty feeling, whatever meats had been in them, seem to have disappeared for the present moment, I am not too worried about that at this point, as they will probably come back - I hope.

I have had a huge acne outbreak, and have not been eating anything offending that normally causes outbreaks, and its not quite near enough for it to be cycle related.

I have read back through all my entries, and realize that I seem to go through and up and down phase alot, but have hardly any growth from it.

I am torn, as I really want some bigger boobs, but don't really want to start swallowing pills and hoping that they work again.

The NBE emotional rollercoaster is alot for me. I am not so much discouraged at this point, as much as I am a little disappointed. I guess I was expecting to have at least gotten fully out of my A's by now, and been completely into Bs. That alone would make me happy.