Bonnette's routine

[bonnette]

i'm taking just one (500 mg) in the middle of the day.

i know it's too early to see anything but i think it's about time to seee smth. they are not a bit swolles or perky or whatever the others are desribing and that's depressin. I'm starting to wonder if i'm the one who get's sensations but no growth.

i also got headache today. but can't be from wildyam cos i missed it today (had a unexpected long day at school).

i think my problem coudl also be the the fats and proteins. i just can't eat more than i want and i have good appetite not very often. also i havent found the protein shakes here in Italy.Maybe tomorrow i go look for it.

But thanks for the encouragement Tjerefang, it helps to keep on track

Bonnette

[bonnette]

i'm close to the end of my 3rd cycle and i have had no growth so far. i feel unhappy and disappointed and have no idea what to do.

Tomorrow i try adding one more wildyam to my routine which makes it:

2 sawpalmeto
2 fenugreek
2 wildyam
4 EPO

massage 2 per day with EPO followed by heating pad. Strange i rememeber in the beginning having stiff nipples when waking up in the morning and i dont have even this anymore.

I hope somebody woudl give me advie on what to do

Desperate Bonnette

[bonnette]

i thought i would express my disappointment in my program here and maybe somebody will come up with a new ideas what to do.
i have been to the middle of my 4th cycle and no progress so far. This month i have had the strongest sensations of all times and i have taken this month:

4 sawpalmetto
3-4 fenugreeks
1 EPO
B-vitamins
agnus castus
massages with cocoabutter and vit-E

i try to eat loads of proteins but i can't eat more than i naturally eat. i even started to eat red meat (by accident though and didn't find it too disgusting so will keep it going on my sandwiches).

i also tried dowsing with help from Wenonae (thank you) but it's also quite misleading sometimes. According to it my program should be working.

But what i dont have is any sign of growth. i have started to think if i'm too small to start with or why is it so. Why do i have sensations (stabbing, warmness, underarmpain) but no growth. I don't want to stay flat for the rest of my life

i will have break tomorrow and will probably carry on until the end of this cycle although have no idea if it's worth it. i should concider a longer break after that but don't know what to start then.

any input would be welcome

Bonnette

[Wenonae]

You may have blocks of some type. Physical, mental, or spiritual blocks. You may want to take a sea salt bath. All details about that can be dowsed. Generally, 0.5cups to 0.75cups dissolved in 2 cups of water and poured over you will help with physical and mental blocks. Spiritual needs a myriad of other things.

Wen'

[joyful1]

Bonnette,
Are those herbs you mentioned for the course of the whole day? (meaning do you take 3-4 FG's 3 times a day or over the course of the whole day?) You sound just like me. I did 7 cycles with pains and no growth, although now I'm thinking that maybe I grew in the bottom but didn't measure it. This time, I measured top to bottom to see if I grow at all that way.

It's very frustrating isn't it? Did I mention on here that I had to go buy a bra in the girl's section? No bra in the women's section fit me. So sad.

I'm rooting for you. Did you consider EE? I wish now I had done the trial thing. I'm afraid to spend the full price and have no results.

[bonnette]

Joyful1

first, i do take 3-4 capsules per day/per herb. i do have sensations but that's it.

i know how depressive it is. the photo i took today is just so sad. it doesn't even look like small flat breasts but like the development has just stopped in the middle. it looks ugly. i do wear padded A-cups so noone knows even my mum but in fact i don't need bra at all. People are actually praising my figure and it makes me feel bad cos i feel like i'm cheating. Sometimes i really wonder how it didn't matter to my ex.

i just wish i had some tissue downwards the nipple so it would look more like a breast. i don't mind small breasts at all, in fact i think A-cup is sexy but how could i get there.

i feel it has so much influence on my psychology these days, i don't want to go out cos i look boyish beside these curvy girls exposing their assets.

i really don't know what to do. im so much against silicon but i know i can't go on like this. i just can't figure out why is it working for others and not me.

What do we have to do? cos i would do anything.

As Wenonae suggested i could have blocks. It's possible cos i have strange memory from my childhood. i was around ten, not into buberty yet and we were watching a TV program where some women were singing one being totally flat. Strange as it is i remember i felt embarrassed cos i knew i would be like that.

sorry for this sad reply but at least i can share my feelings here.

Bonnette