When Breasts (or Lack of ) Get in the Way

[idontmeasureup]

Lately, my breasts or my issue with my breasts or my lack of breasts, maybe all of the above has been getting in the way of my friendships. Several of my friends have breast implants & now I'm so intensely jealous of them, I don't even want to be around them anymore. Ever since about a year ago when I found out my husband's ex-wife had D cup implants, I was set off on this tornado of a natural breast enlargement quest. First I wanted to try SBS, then I found Brava & got one and couldn't wear the d*** thing at night, then I wanted to take bovine ovary, then it was Flat2Fab, now I'm going to try Greenbush. I was going to just take the plunge & get implants, but after everything was set to go I completely freaked & backed out of it. I keep telling myself I'll do it in a few months when I honestly know I might never have the courage to do it.

So, I've already had a falling out with one friend & we haven't spoken since March. My husband is still friends with her husband and he called their house last night & talked to his friend's wife, but we never spoke to eachother. How it all started was they have this birthday list thing & in March we got the email list & my husband's ex-wife was still on the list & I completely flew off the handle. Now this couple is telling my husband I need to grow up & its the combonation of my friends implants & the ex's implants that are the reason why I'm not speaking to this girl. I'm letting f*****g fake tits ruin my life.

Am I nuts or has anybody out there ever felt this way, like you'd rather sit home that have to be out with your friends that have implants while you're sitting there putting on a happy face all the while you're sweating in your water bra or inserts?

[akira]

I know what you mean. I have a friend who is constantly obsessed with shopping for lingerie and it seems like she only does it around me even though i've expressed to her that I hate going lingerie shopping cause i'll see something I want but it doesn't come in my size ever. I've fallen out of touch with her for other reasons, but I absolutely hated how anytime we'd get together she'd want to go lingerie shopping. Like she had to lord over the fact that she has boobs and I should make sure I know it cause i'm skinny and she's jealous of that.(thing is I can't really help that i'm skinny and I really don't flaunt around that i'm skinny)we still talk but it's usually to set up a time to play paintball.

I usually don't have many female friends because I always feel like i'm comparing myself to them. Hell I still haven't gotten over the fact that my boyfriend used to like this one short busty girl, who still sometimes talks to him every once in a while which does upset me even though I know she has a boyfriend, I still worry that he might have feelings for her still, even though he tells me that he loves me. I always worry that he's lied to me when he says he prefers smaller breasts, yet he's allowed me to do the whole NBE thing. I dunno anymore but I do know what you mean about the whole falling out with friends because of breasts.

I think if your friends are understanding enough, you should try telling them about your insecurities with being less busty than they are and just explain to them that obviously they had been there before since they got implants and just ask them to remember to back before their implants.

[Wenonae]

IDMup-

You should stop wasting time. Read your biofields and grow 3 cups (I indicate you can safe grow 3.5 cups in 8 months time frame) so you can focus on other things in life. It's really the only way to fix this obssession/concern since it's not going to just 'go away'. You're already C's. Imagine what others feel like who've AA's.

FYI- the God I know wants us Christians to live the happiest, healthiest, and fully fullfilled life. One of the greatest parables told is of the 3 men who received moneys from their master. One invested wisely got a return of 10x's. Another invested concervatively and got a 2x return. The last one just buried his money because he didn't care to 'take risks'. The last man was reprimanded harshly, in fact his funds were taken from him. Learn from this. If you have the 'skill' and opportunity, take it, because you don't know when that will be taken from you. Hoarding and doubting gets you no where.

If God didn't want us to dowse, then I have no doubt in my mind, we'd be able to do the work of the Devil including a serious means to enhance our greed (win lottos, unfair gambling advantages, learn nasty deeds about people's affairs), but we can't with dowsing. It can ONLY be used for the better Good of all.

Hope you give dowsing another go. The Real Breast book has been updated, too. The lastest link is on the e-book forum. Now it's even got in there how to dowse about breast surgery stuff so u can learn if silicone shells are toxic and other stuff. ANYWAYS, just get this NBE thing done with already. You're already ahead of most- health decent, have fatty tissue to work with. Why in the world struggle? Why??

Wen'

[tink]

Idontmeasureup, your a C?? Geez I'm only an A cup, 5'1, and 94lbs. I'm a tiny thing but guys have always liked that. I've never had one say they didnt like my boobs. I'm guessing my current bf likes them too though I've never asked him. He gives them plenty of attention so I guess thats a sign that they like them. Anyhow, I never let my petiteness bother me, once in a while I feel small but I get over it. My biggest gripe lately is not being able to gain weight. I just want to be 100lbs maybe 105 is that too much to ask! I eat 3-4 meals a day, plenty of fattening high calorie foods, and several snacks, I work in front of a computer all day so I'm not even burning the calories and still my metabolism gets rid of them and I don't gain weight. I have to eat all that food just to maintain my current weight...Its exhausting. Geez whats wrong with me? I would really like big boobs and I sure do like those 2 weeks before AF when they swell but really I just want to gain weight because I know I'll gain there too.

Anyhow don't forget that the thing you most want that you think is going to make you happy is not going to be your happiness, because once you get that, you'll move on to something else and think "If ony I had that, my life would be great"...There's always going to be an "If only" Happiness comes from within.

[idontmeasureup]

Yeah tink, I know.... my husband has actually told me that on several occasions that the reason this whole boob thing has gotten amplified is that "I'm bored with my life & have nothing better to worry about b/c I have good marriage, good job, nice car, nice house, etc." Maybe he's right, and that's probably another reason I haven't gotten implants, b/c it is true that money can't buy happiness. 6 grand is a lot of money too.
Maybe I'm Going NUTS

[confused]

Hi idontmeasureup,

Actually, I think your husband is a very Lucky man, because he has a Wife who still cares how she looks for him and I think some people after they get married men and women alike , stop carring how they look for their mates and I just think that isn't right, because that sometimes causes the mate to look at other people for sure. So, I am saying , you are a special individual because you care about your body and how you look. God Bless and don't worry all will come to pass. Your Breast growing I mean.

sincerely,

jre/confused

[idontmeasureup]

Awww, thanks confused, that is so sweet of you . I know, you're right that a lot of women (& men too) let themselves go after they get married b/c now that they have landed a mate, they feel that they don't have to try anymore. My husband works out at the gym & keeps himself in really good shape as do I. The only thing missing for me is bigger boobs. I'm gonna keep trying to get 'em w/o surgery. Good luck with your routine too, hope you're feeling better, I remember you said you had some blurry vision & stuff this week.

[atag]

Hey idontmeasureup,

I know what ur saying trust me. The other day i went lingerie shoppin with my boyfriend's sis & felt like kicking myself for it! She was talkin only like the 26-38 language & i was quietly searchin on my own for like the 32's...too afraid to ask for it aloud! Even worse his whole family comes with huge boobs! I mean every female is gorgeous & very well endowed! Imagine my plight when i'm around them..
Fortunately she did't laugh out this time. She used to comment earlier on how tiny i am n there was an instance my boyfriend even called them Timmy & Tommy!!! I nearly slapped him that day!
But they don't do that now luckily so my self esteem has lifted a lil. What i've learnt is that fretting over their size & cursing others who've got a good rack isn't gonna get us anywhere. Rather we can be patient, focus on whats good for us & what can help us grow, be positive & look at the good things in life to keep us happy in the meantime. Jus a lil thot from me..

[idontmeasureup]

Hey Satu,

About the ex thing...my husband doesn't talk about his ex-wife, its his friends that always bring her up. They were married barely 2 years, no kids & he hasn't heard from her since they split up almost 7 years ago. I think his friends do it just to p*** him off unless they keep in contact with her, which I highly doubt.

I couldn't do the implant thing, I just completely freaked when it came down to it. And, my friends that have implants are not really close friends, so its not like I can say, hey by the way, about the breast thing. I'm gearing up to start my routine in a week or so, I'm hoping it goes better this time. Good luck to you, aren't you a Flat2Fabber?