Post by pinkmimi on Jan 15, 2004 20:05:30 GMT -5
Hi Ladies,
Well, it looks like my BE journey is probably winding down. At this point, I've tried just about everything there is to try, and nothing has worked for me. At various times, I've tried high and low doses of BO, internal and external estradiol, progesterone, PR-blockers, and herbal massage, all the while faithfully taking protein shakes, SP, fatty acids, and everything else that is supposed to ensure success. First I tried Bob's plan, and then I switched to the plan more conventionally followed on this board, but all to no avail.
After a year and two months straight on BO, I finally took a one-week break during my period in December. After five or six days off, I began again with 1800mg BO during the follicular phase and 2400mg during luteal. I've also been taking 1500mg damiana and 600mg oregano as PR-blockers. (I stopped taking progesterone months ago.) In addition, I use herbal tinctures for massage twice a day--1/8 teaspoon hops in the afternoon and 1/8 teaspoon each of red clover and fenugreek in the evening. I still take protein shakes, am up to 5400mg SP, and take my fatty acids along with my other vitamins. In December, I felt renewed pains in the beginning of my cycle and even thought I saw some growth in the cleavage area, which began around day 6 or 7 of last cycle. But since my period this month, I've lost any gain I had. It's entirely gone.
Every month, no matter what I do, it's the same old story. I start out measuring 7 1/2" across each breast ("too big for an A, too small for a B," as I like to call it) and gradually increase until I'm a little over 8" across each breast at the end of the month. But then, no matter what, I always lose it. It's become so depressing. It reminds me of when I was using Brava. It was the same thing--swelling up and hoping that maybe some of it is growth this time only to have your hopes dashed when you realize that not a bit of it was.
I'm beginning to think that I just have a problem with fat storage. I've always been small and thin, and while lots of thin women have large breasts, most of them DO seem to be able to gain weight in other places, too, and at least have to exercise or avoid overeating in order to retain their slender figures. On the other hand, even if I eat extra portions of fatty desserts or what have you, it's a struggle to even gain a pound. Looking back now, I don't know why I was so foolish to think that I could selectively add fat to my body in one place when I can seldom manage to add it ANYWHERE. Maybe I'll try this new weight gain diet some people have been talking about.
Right now, I'm thinking I'll finish out this month (I'm on day 7) and then take a good, decent break (like a month or maybe even more) and try one more time. After that, I'm through. I just don't see anything left to try.
Sorry to be depressing, but that's how I feel right now. It's very hard to have decent size breasts (B looks quite decent on someone thin like me) for about two weeks and then watch them slowly vanish to two flat pancakes. It's hard for me even to visit this board anymore because either people aren't growing, which makes me feel bad for them, or people ARE growing, which makes me feel bad too since I'm not.
I guess I'm another statistic for the "it didn't work" side. Maybe in a few years they'll perfect this new fat transplant procedure. It sure would be nice to spend at least a few of my younger years with full breasts.
pinkmimi
Well, it looks like my BE journey is probably winding down. At this point, I've tried just about everything there is to try, and nothing has worked for me. At various times, I've tried high and low doses of BO, internal and external estradiol, progesterone, PR-blockers, and herbal massage, all the while faithfully taking protein shakes, SP, fatty acids, and everything else that is supposed to ensure success. First I tried Bob's plan, and then I switched to the plan more conventionally followed on this board, but all to no avail.
After a year and two months straight on BO, I finally took a one-week break during my period in December. After five or six days off, I began again with 1800mg BO during the follicular phase and 2400mg during luteal. I've also been taking 1500mg damiana and 600mg oregano as PR-blockers. (I stopped taking progesterone months ago.) In addition, I use herbal tinctures for massage twice a day--1/8 teaspoon hops in the afternoon and 1/8 teaspoon each of red clover and fenugreek in the evening. I still take protein shakes, am up to 5400mg SP, and take my fatty acids along with my other vitamins. In December, I felt renewed pains in the beginning of my cycle and even thought I saw some growth in the cleavage area, which began around day 6 or 7 of last cycle. But since my period this month, I've lost any gain I had. It's entirely gone.
Every month, no matter what I do, it's the same old story. I start out measuring 7 1/2" across each breast ("too big for an A, too small for a B," as I like to call it) and gradually increase until I'm a little over 8" across each breast at the end of the month. But then, no matter what, I always lose it. It's become so depressing. It reminds me of when I was using Brava. It was the same thing--swelling up and hoping that maybe some of it is growth this time only to have your hopes dashed when you realize that not a bit of it was.
I'm beginning to think that I just have a problem with fat storage. I've always been small and thin, and while lots of thin women have large breasts, most of them DO seem to be able to gain weight in other places, too, and at least have to exercise or avoid overeating in order to retain their slender figures. On the other hand, even if I eat extra portions of fatty desserts or what have you, it's a struggle to even gain a pound. Looking back now, I don't know why I was so foolish to think that I could selectively add fat to my body in one place when I can seldom manage to add it ANYWHERE. Maybe I'll try this new weight gain diet some people have been talking about.
Right now, I'm thinking I'll finish out this month (I'm on day 7) and then take a good, decent break (like a month or maybe even more) and try one more time. After that, I'm through. I just don't see anything left to try.
Sorry to be depressing, but that's how I feel right now. It's very hard to have decent size breasts (B looks quite decent on someone thin like me) for about two weeks and then watch them slowly vanish to two flat pancakes. It's hard for me even to visit this board anymore because either people aren't growing, which makes me feel bad for them, or people ARE growing, which makes me feel bad too since I'm not.
I guess I'm another statistic for the "it didn't work" side. Maybe in a few years they'll perfect this new fat transplant procedure. It sure would be nice to spend at least a few of my younger years with full breasts.
pinkmimi
My head was filled with so much information and conflicting theories while my hormones were out of whack (NOT the way we want them) and so I felt I had nothing to offer.
